Tuesday, August 25, 2009

There are so many titles that come to my mind when I wanted to share on this piece…some are - 180 degrees change with His grace, Jesus says “With Me it is Possible”, Some times we need to go through storms to appreciate the Light, Nothing is Impossible, The Light after Dawn, etc…which one?

This time I would like to share with you some one who is dear to me and I have known this person for over decades of my life. I shall name this person ‘Shortie’. I am neither pastor nor a preacher but I remember well a tax collector who was mentioned in the bible whom was the least person on earth where the 12 disciples thought would be appreciated by Jesus. In the old days a tax collector were generally disgusted by the public for their snobbish attitude...But Jesus took notice of this tax collector on the tree (who was a short man and that he had to climb on a tree to look out for Jesus) and went to his house to dine. With that, the tax collector vowed to give all his ill gotten gains and change his life to follow Christ.

Now back to my Shortie. When I was very young, Shortie was beautiful and talented. She was a singer in a night club. Before Shortie started singing, her dad was super against the idea. However she pressed on and proved she was well demanded. Many men adored her singing and so am I. I recall some of her glistening stage dresses and a vague memory of her stage performance. I caught a glimpse while waiting for her one night together with my uncle.

Besides, I remember those days she would wake up by noon to practice every hour before she took the stage by night. Till to date I could hum some of those songs she practiced. Mostly were golden Shanghai oldies. Thus my friend was shocked when she heard me humming of an oldie song and wondered where I have learned it since I am considered a “Mandarin Idiot”…there was also a book where many paper cuttings about Shortie.

Being the youngest in Shortie’s household then, everyone loves me. I adored her and yet I was afraid of her. Well, she could loose her temper easily due to her hectic schedule and the pressure was enormous to stay on ‘top’. So when I annoyed her, I would get a very nasty stare but when I behaved, I get treats like bubble gums.

She was then attached to a man. Initially I found the man very man (if you know what I mean). But things took a downturn. Some how her career took a dip and the man, so called man became a bastard - I would put it this way.

Shortie had a hard fall. She had then took on several odd jobs and became fanatic on her religion. Each year Shortie would seek medium’s prediction on her future and if some unfavourable event was expected she would spend to ‘get rid’ of the spell. Along the way she met another decent man and became her husband. Life did not favour Shortie for many years. Any ‘routes’ she embarked which look promising at the beginning - turned into darkness within a short period. Money became a problem for the couple. They were in great debts and to the point of not answering phone calls. At times my heart ached to know her situation. So were her family and especially her parents. They blamed it on fate. But Shortie’s sister and I prayed that somehow, someday Jesus will show her the way…

We are blessed to see that day. Shortie turned up in church one day to my surprise. From then onwards, she never looked back to her idols and mediums to seek for fortune or to ‘get rid’ the unfortunate but to rely on Jesus. After several months, she was baptized and my heart rejoices with her that she found ‘The Way’. She is faithful and at one time, there was an opportunity to earn more but she had to work on Sunday. I prayed that she will trust God and return to church. She took the courage and chose to come back to church.

Things begin to change. She is not in fear anymore. She and her husband found a decent job and now she has savings. Most of all I can see and feel she has found peace in life. Today she is happily rejoicing and singing for the Lord on the stage!

At times it takes a lot to belief what took place two thousand years ago just via a book. We could have questioned ourselves what if the author of the Bible added or subtracted some information and made it exciting for us. How can we verify? One way – simply to trust it with faith. I am super blessed to witness many lives which have been changed and transformed when one chooses to believe in Him – including mine.

Some may ask that many Christians believe in Jesus when they were at their lowest (or when they faced life and death situation). I agree to some extend. We have been given a choice at all times. At some point in life, some one would have spoke to us on Christ or some how we would have been exposed to Christianity.

At the good times of our life, we are arrogant and do not need anyone neither God. We claim success and riches are by our own effort. Some may abide in God only with the intention to want more riches or to protect their wealth and good health to enjoy their wealth. Sometimes humans need some ‘spanking’ to learn Who is in control…For those who repent, the Father is ever merciful…Amen.

I would say that it is neither the fame nor riches that can bring us far but His peace and joy. He always know what we needed, it is us who are choosing the wrong things in our life. Trust Him or trust ourselves, the choice is ours!

I am still undecided on the title…but I guess it’s the contents that matter…

Sunday, August 9, 2009

It wasn't my bravery but it was His peace given to me...

I can't help it but to share my first night in Bangkok with my friends and colleagues when I returned last Tuesday. Infact, I was doubtful about others when they shared their experiences...

We checked into a hotel at the heart of Bangkok about noon. It was a suite with a living room and a bed room. As usual, I pressed the door bell before we entered the suite. The bell boy knocked twice when he rolled in the baggages together with us. I acknowledged his acts but did not put much thought about it.

The bell boy opened all the curtains and the sun shined into our suite. We then went off to do our shopping and only returned by night. The room was poorly lighted as the lights were a liitle deemed. The bedroom aircond was not cool at all. My colleague cum travel mate decided to shower first while I lied on the couch and watch TV. After she had done, she came asking why did I knocked her door knowingly that she was in the midst of showering. I denied it cause I did not even moved and inche from the couch! We put that incident aside without further comment.

While preparing for bed, we decided to open the bedroom door to allow the aircond from the living room to flow in and to block part of the desk mirror which was facing my bed. Another mirror from the bathroom was also facing my bed. I told my mate to closed the bathroom door when she had done her business to block the said mirror...I felt some what uncomfortable when I saw a reflection from part of the desk mirror...I told myself it was my imagination and went to bed.

It was hot so I cover half of my body with the blanket. By middle of the nite, I was covered from my chest to toe. Suddenly I realized that the blanket covered from my head to toe and I struggled to get out of it. I yelled to my mate to wake me up and prayed. At the same time, my conscience mind told me that I was half dreaming and no matter how I yell for my mate, she could not hear. Again in my mind, I can see that my mate was sleeping soundly. I stopped yelling and struggled hard to wake myself up. After a few minutes, I was awake. I looked around and my mate was sleeping. I thought I was too tired. But I was sweating by then. I turned to face my mate and fell asleep again.

This time I felt 2 fists punching my back and trying to push me off the bed. I felt frustrated and irritated. I prayed again and struggled to lie on my back to face upwards so that the punching can stop. After a few struggles, I managed to face upwards and awake.

I repeatedly told myself that I shall changed room tomorrow and prayed numerous times "In Jesus mighty name, set me. By the blood of Jesus Christ, set me free...Amen" until I fell asleep till morning.

By morning, my mate explained that she had headache in the middle of the nite and took panadol. She further explained that she seldom experience headache after falling asleep. I immediately told her to change room and told her my experiences.

We approached the lobby after breakfast and requested for a new suite. The receptionist asked why and my mate explained that a 'guest' slept with me and also knocked her door while she was bathing. The receptionist did not look shock neither any facial expression that tells us that she was suprise to hear such comment. She smiled and obediently handed us a new suite key. We were quite taken a back with her reaction.

We checked into a new suite and the feeling was some what different from the initial one. Gee...

I shared my experiences with my friends and colleagues when I returned to KL. The common questions were "Weren't you scared? Why didn't you wake up your mate or sleep on the same bed with her? why didn't you change room immediately then?"

Well, I did thought of changing room then or even to wake my mate. But I just don't have th heart to scare her when she was sleeping soundly. Moreso my heart was not beating as though I was fearful...I was just sweating and I thought to myself that I can 'survive' through it!

They said I was brave but I do not agree because I did nothing but prayed...It was His peace given to me..."When I felt secured, I said; "I will not be shaken" '(Psalm 30:6) AMEN!

If you asked whether I would dare to check in to the same suite again since I have strong faith in Christ...I won't! Not that I am lacking faith in Jesus, but we should not test our Lord by purposely asking for trouble, agree?

So, His presence give us authority and protection. Besides, today's sermon in chruch thought me to put away those folks tale practices ie pressing the bell or knocking on the hotel door before entering the room neither should I be placing one slipper up while the other down to keep away the 'guests'. These do not help but only Jesus do! Amen!!! Hope this testimony would strengthen your faith in Him...